Abuse and Neglect. I will probably send you some copies of my homework and the final paper (10-15 pages) from my Abuse and Neglect class. To read both how I was "neglected" as a child and how that contributed to my actions is very painful.

I am not blaming my parents; they did the best they could. But while I do have a very high IQ (140+), it does not guarantee that emotionally I know how to act.

I keep seeing pieces of myself in the non-fiction books I read and it is so painful to realize that I should have stepped out and yelled for help along the way instead of thinking that I was OK and knew better than anyone else about what I was doing.

So to recap the above, I am not claming victim hood as the excuse for my actions or saying that what I did was not abusive. I am learning for the first time that life is not something you should just let happen to you.

You should always question what you are feeling and when thing are crazy, seek someone out for balance to be sure you are not going down a wrong road.
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