Believe me I am paying dearly for my actions. I have been meeting with a psychologist here at the prison for the last two years plus. We usually meet for an hour every other week. I have done a lot of emotional work on who and what I am and I continue to work on my faults.

There is nothing I can say that will ever take back the harm and hurt that I have caused, but believe me I am paying dearly for my actions.

My Mom and Dad have been supportive of me as their son but are not able to understand "what went wrong". They send me a monthly allowance and help buy books and magazines. Yes, I do read a lot.

The bright spots in my life now come from the few people who are willing to love and accept me as a person without condoning what I have done in the past.

I have had some major thinking errors caused by a wide variety of issues that I never properly dealt with. I have sort of rediscovered myself, and I am working every day at being an honorable and trustworthy human being.

I hope you will allow me to share my journey with you and I appreciate any time you can share with me.  ¶ 11:06 AM