Denied. Lunch is done. It was two pieces bologna and two pieces of cheese. I scored two extra slices of cheese and passed on the bologna. We also had a side of coleslaw (yeah the cabbage is still here) and eight ounces of tomato soup.

The law library still does not have a copy of the Supreme Court case. They must not have internet access. This is really pissing me off.

I need to see what that case says. I could be out of here and every additional day I serve could be illegal! So it is my time they are messing with.

Well, maybe you or my Dad will come through. I know there must be hundreds of copies in the federal joints to be sure. There must be some massive partying going on there. It almost makes me wish I was back at Club Fed.

If it is truly retroactive, I just need to find which procedure I am best filing under and to which court, and off I go. This would mean a trip back to county jail, unless I get released right from here. Then I need to wait for the US Marshal since Raleigh has filed a detainer on me. Hopefully, they remove that ASAP so it does not become an issue.

I ended up sending a handwritten letter last night so they should have it by Thursday. Then if they answer by Friday’s mail, I might have an answer by next Tuesday. I wonder if I can call them. I do not even know who to ask.

It is now around 2:00 PM. So, I thought life sucked. Well, my hopefulness on my federal appeal just died. I just received word that the federal court denied my request.

They stated that my counsel was effective and that my federal sentence did not constitute "double punishment." See what happens when you have hope? And now I cannot even call anyone; Mom and Dad have gone south and I do not have an address yet for their Georgia location. Life is really sucky.

I hate to even thing about a possible bright spot. Yeah, now the Supreme Court ruling becomes more important, but since I have yet to read it, I truly have no idea how it will apply to me. This is probably one of the worst days since my arrest, and I have no music, no phone, no walking buddy, NOTHING. Just some raw carrots, mackerel, and tuna, and I did manage to save one Hershey bar.

Now is the time I could really use a visit. I am sorry, but I know I am not your responsibility and I have put my life in the fucked up position it is in. So now I am free to deal with it. I know I have often said that life is NOT FAIR (and that is a good thing), but I just wish I could catch a break somewhere.

I am going to have to read the court decision several more times to truly get the arguments they used and then read the Supreme Court ruling to hopefully see some possible light!  ¶ 1:59 PM