Prison Pete
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Inner Turmoil.
Good morning. It is just before 7:00 AM here and I have been up since around 5:00 AM. I spent the last two hours reading Master of Temptation.
I wanted to document the inner turmoil I am currently feeling. Specifically for once I actually have all the resources I need to do what I say I think I might be good at: political and social commentary.
Yeah sure, I do not have a dictionary, thesaurus, or computer, but at my feet, literally, I have six days of NY Times with stories galore that are begging to be digested, explained, commented on and otherwise dealt with.
Several subjects actually have multiple stories, offering different perspectives, so that I can not even complain about needing additional resource material. I have plenty of paper, two pens, a pencil and certainly plenty of time.
I have food to munch on and am even looking forward to a shower today. So let us see how much internal discipline I have. The razor was just handed out, so I have shaving to do also.
In addition, I have the Supreme Court case to read and a few pages left to finish off Master of Temptation, the fourth of the five books you sent.
So today could be a very productive day and one that at the end of which, I could actually feel that I have not just passed the time, but grabbed life by the horns and used my talents and abilities to rise above my physical surroundings.
Of course the preceding speech could also be like the preacher scene in Blazing Saddles, where after he is done spewing his positive outlook stuff, the congregation responds "BULLSHIT!"
So I find myself really looking internally at the same old Pete.
If I was out on the street now and not off to go to work, I would probably justify running out for an expensive breakfast, make a run to Staples for very badly needed special office supplies to enable my creative juices to flow, and come back home to end up plunked in front of the TV or the computer doing anything but writing, all the while thankful that I have managed to avoid another opportunity to rise to an occasion and actually accomplish a task I am fully capable of doing, but hey why spend the effort.
Or having spent enough physical time getting the tools needed and a couple of good hours thinking of what I was going to write, I would put aside the task for another day.
Yes, that certainly would be the usual run of things.
I wanted to document the inner turmoil I am currently feeling. Specifically for once I actually have all the resources I need to do what I say I think I might be good at: political and social commentary.
Yeah sure, I do not have a dictionary, thesaurus, or computer, but at my feet, literally, I have six days of NY Times with stories galore that are begging to be digested, explained, commented on and otherwise dealt with.
Several subjects actually have multiple stories, offering different perspectives, so that I can not even complain about needing additional resource material. I have plenty of paper, two pens, a pencil and certainly plenty of time.
I have food to munch on and am even looking forward to a shower today. So let us see how much internal discipline I have. The razor was just handed out, so I have shaving to do also.
In addition, I have the Supreme Court case to read and a few pages left to finish off Master of Temptation, the fourth of the five books you sent.
So today could be a very productive day and one that at the end of which, I could actually feel that I have not just passed the time, but grabbed life by the horns and used my talents and abilities to rise above my physical surroundings.
Of course the preceding speech could also be like the preacher scene in Blazing Saddles, where after he is done spewing his positive outlook stuff, the congregation responds "BULLSHIT!"
So I find myself really looking internally at the same old Pete.
If I was out on the street now and not off to go to work, I would probably justify running out for an expensive breakfast, make a run to Staples for very badly needed special office supplies to enable my creative juices to flow, and come back home to end up plunked in front of the TV or the computer doing anything but writing, all the while thankful that I have managed to avoid another opportunity to rise to an occasion and actually accomplish a task I am fully capable of doing, but hey why spend the effort.
Or having spent enough physical time getting the tools needed and a couple of good hours thinking of what I was going to write, I would put aside the task for another day.
Yes, that certainly would be the usual run of things.
Comments:
Sounds like me Pete. I have the week off for spring break and all these lofty plans to get my house clean and organized, yada, yada, yada... and after 3 days I'm still working on the office. Took the time to go buy extra filing folders and supplies and barely opened them.
Just keep hanging in there Pete. I know I haven't commented a lot lately, but know that I'm still reading every day. And when I do eventually get to my garage, I'm going to have some books that I might be able to send you.
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Just keep hanging in there Pete. I know I haven't commented a lot lately, but know that I'm still reading every day. And when I do eventually get to my garage, I'm going to have some books that I might be able to send you.
