More and More X-Rays. I was not going to take the typewriter out. I was going to write a short note and ask you for a favor, but alas once the pen hit the paper the "woe is me" stuff started to flow.

I want to make clear that this is not a pity party, just the need to document the current state of my mind which I pretty soon will not have to worry about as the last remnants of it are about to take leave.

My sinus problem refuses to give me more than a couple of hours of relief. They started me on an antibiotic which does not seem to make much of a difference. I just pulled out the article that was in the Science Times a few months ago and I do not have any of the symptoms that they list for being treatable by antibiotics.

I did go and have some back x-rays done. Four different exposures. In December 2004 I had a chest x-ray. In January 2005 I had another chest x-ray, a panoramic dental x-ray, and at least three (or maybe four) x-rays of my sinuses. Since I have been here I have had another four sinus x-rays and then today's four back x-rays. They are saying they want to do another set of x-rays on my sinuses after I have taken the antibiotic for a week or so.

Meanwhile no one had actually done a physical exam of my nose. I am beginning to think I might be getting a little too much exposure to radiation?

On top of all this they called my name at for Legal Mail today and I was all prepared for the last rejection of my appeal, but it was not a denial but a request for additional paperwork. This last letter is dated 7/26/05 and the postmark date is August 1, 2005. It was addressed to me at Downstate. So it finally showed up today!

The last mailing from this same clerk was to me here, and she has consistently entered my letters to her as "change of address" letters. I still think she is purposely making sure I do not get to file this appeal properly.

At this point I am forced to argue a negative: the fact that I did not get the original letter that was supposedly mailed to me way back on February 2, 2005. The only way I can even begin to argue this is to show that all the letters I have written show that I was operating under procedures that were mailed to me on February 7, but that letter is not listed on the docket.

They also do not list receipt of a handwritten letter I mailed in February before I had the typewriter or any carbon paper.

I really am missing the emotional support system that was at Club Fed. This is the time when being able to talk things out with Dr. W. would be a blessing. Instead all I can do is vent to you and bear down and muddle through.  ¶ 10:15 AM