Part of the old Pete
was the inability to be able to look at my life in its entirety. I would seek activities that would require the least amount of effort on my part, take short cuts and generally look out for Number One, me. I do understand that life is really a series of interwoven actions and that life is never as simple as I used to deal with it.
The major problem at this point is that the environment I am currently living in is so completely different from Club Fed
. It is forcing me to develop a whole new set of coping skills, and it appears that I am not yet there and also have not adequately described the effect that this environment has on me.
As I type this, sitting on my bunk, two other inmates are busy verbally abusing the inmate that sleeps on the bottom bunk. I have my headphones on and am listening to some good old rock and roll but I cannot play it loud enough to fully blot out the conversations of the other inmates around me.
It is tough to listen to any sentence here that does not have one or more of those infamous 'seven dirty words
'. Even if no dirty words are in the sentence, it will usually be spoken to degrade or attack someone's self-esteem.
I do not know if any of the above makes sense or not. I will reread it and see if I can maybe break it down so that it is clearer.
Sending books in a box will be no problem; that is the only way to send all the food etc. You might just label the box 'Books Enclosed' but even that should not be necessary since the books are delivered by the same person that brings the food packages.
The Feynman book
is now residing on a shelf in the FCI Beckley
Education Department Library. It is a great book, and I do think it would be worth your time to read. It might even be in the local library?
I wonder if it might help you learn about some of the 'problems' gifted people experience. If nothing else I think you might enjoy it, since it seems he might have been one of the original nerds.
If you do end up getting a copy, hold on to it for a while. If I do end up being here for the very long term that book is certainly one I would like to use to write some stuff on.
Sorry to hear about the death of your friend
. I have been to Stone Mountain
back when I was still married and we took the cable car up to the top of the rock.
Like after eating all the prison food, I need a protein booster so today at 6:00 PM I had a can of octopus, drained the oil, mixed in some mustard and hot sauce and put a quarter of a slice of cheese on a generic Ritz and snacked out.
PS What is the postage to Wagga Wagga, Australia