I have not sent out a bunch of whiny letters hoping that the things and letters I was waiting for would arrive "tomorrow," and before I know it a week or more has gone by.

You have been consistent with your letters and for that I am truly grateful. Please do not post the whiny stuff on the blog; I just wanted to let you know where my head is at.

To add to the emotional down mood, I did receive a copy of all the transcripts from the Federal public defender in Raleigh.

I had gotten the address from Reverend Paul, (just so you know you do not get all my requests) and he sent both sets up (Federal and NY State). That was actually more than I expected, but the emotional turmoil just the presence of the paperwork causes is crushing.

Not sure if you can understand but now would be a great time to have some professional head shrinkers around.  ¶ 8:23 PM