Promises to Write.
Good evening, it is 7:00 PM here in upstate New York. I hope you had an enjoyable Easter? Did the Easter Bunny give you a little extra holiday tail? Ha Ha
I am hoping to enclose a few more posts, but to be honest I am not sure how long my motivation will hold out. It has been a long week here and I am feeling rather sorry for myself. I know that it is not a good thing and I am working on lifting myself up and there should be some improvement soon.
I have decided that it would probably be a good thing if you do not send me any comments that show up on the blog that ask for my address. I am not sure exactly how the archive of the blog is done by you, but certainly save the remarks for later on, just delete them in the copy you send to me.
I know that your last letter included two requests for my address and again I have received nothing. It is certainly a little thing but each time I see a request I get my hopes up. Each day at mail call, I keep saying well maybe tomorrow. This past week I did not receive one letter!
Now I know you are busy and I can deal with the time between your letters, but it is something different with the blog. The hopeless romantic in me thinks there are people out there that might actually give a damn about me as a human.
It has been over two weeks since I have heard from Mom and Dad. Dad was supposed to write twice a week (his words) and I hoped that at least we could get to a once a week thing, but alas it does not seem to take much for me to fall off their radar.
It is not negative comments that bother me, I am resigned to that and in some ways I have been dealing with that my whole life and now can handle that to some extent, and if it becomes too oppressive I know to reach out for help. It is the false sincerity that bugs me I guess. I am willing to leave the pen pal thing up there and maybe someone will really write someday. It just does not need to be something I need to know about in advance.
I do not want to bother following up the people that asked for my address and have decided not to send you a sample intro letter either at this point. If you ever get a comment like, "I was going to write but I changed my mind," you can send those through. It is just the ones that say they will write that I would like you to not mention to me at this point. Give them my address and if they write I will certainly let you know!