And now back to me and more poor excuse of a life.
I returned from the law library last night already feeling down from the fact that while I had found another case that helped my case, I knew it would still not help.
The movie last night was "Flight 93." It was really tough to watch and I had to fight back tears from the start. Several of my fellow inmates laughed through the entire movie and one or two had to be told that this was based on a true event! Talk about clueless!
I really needed to have someone tell me they loved me last night and I almost called home. Somehow I was able to repress the urge to call home because while my parents certainly love me, it would be a crap shot as to if I would get the kind of reassurance I needed. I probably should not have watched the movie. Among other things it certainly reminded me of how transient life can be and we never know what the future holds, so be sure to celebrate today!
What I ended up doing after just sitting on my bunk for a few minutes were a couple of the Cross-Sums and then I pulled out the C++ book. It worked. If the emotional side of life is too hard to deal with, just slip into the analytical side of life. I wish I could try each of the examples in the text as I read along. It is certainly much easier for me to see what they are talking about, but this new challenge I have taken up should prove interesting.
I am reading the book all the way through so that I can get the entire concept of the language before I even write one line of code. Instead of doing little bits of code along the way, I will see if I can wrap my mind around the whole thing at once. I know I can do it; it is easier for me to get to try it as I go along, but this way I will be forced to do it the right way from the start. Proper planning, flowcharting etc. Time will tell if I can do it.
The bottom line of my "technical" diversion is that it worked a little bit but I still had some trouble sleeping. I was suffering from an unsoothed inner spirit.