Parole Board decision. The following is a verbatim transcript of the Parole Board decision I received a little over one hour ago.

AFTER A CAREFUL REVIEW OF THIS RECORD, THIS INTERVIEW AND DUE DELIBERATION PAROLE IS DENIED FOR THE FOLLOWING REASONS: YOUR RECORD INCLUDES A FEDERAL CONVICTION. THE PANEL NOTES RECEIPT OF AN EEC AND LIMITED PROGRAMMING. ALSO NOTED IS LACK OF A MUCH NEEDED PROGRAM SPECIFIC TO YOU. DURING THE INTERVIEW YOU DEMONSTRATED SUPERFICIAL REMORSE AND FOCUSED ON YOURSELF INSTEAD. ALL FACTORS CONSIDERED THE PANEL CONCLUDES THAT IF RELEASED AT THIS TIME THERE IS A REASONABLE PROBABILITY THAT YOU WOULD NOT LIVE AND REMAIN AT LIBERTY WITHOUT VIOLATING THE LAW AND YOUR RELEASE IS INCOMPATIBLE WITH THE WELFARE AND SAFETY OF THE COMMUNITY.

RANDOM THOUGHTS

I guess I can stop using all caps as they do. No mention of the amount of time I have served. Absolutely no mention of my five page inmate statement. No mention that I pled guilty to all charges as opposed to having gone to trail. No mention of the six years of therapy I mentioned in both my written statement and appearance at the board.

The note that I “demonstrated superficial remorse” was a setup question that was mentioned by one of the examiners toward the end. He cut me off and would not let me fully describe the pain and agony I suffer every day. The therapeutic program alluded to is a six month three hour a day thing of very questionable efficacy, and while I have not yet taken it, I have not refused it, so it is not supposed to be held against me. Furthermore, one of the many parole stipulations is that I am to participate in an ongoing program, not to mention mandated polygraph testing.

So here I sit alone, with the added stress of not having heard from my mom yet this month. The last letter she sent was back around June 15. There are two guys who are being supportive, Tyrell Washington, my direct neighbor, and Ray Carlton, the young kid (21), that I have mentioned before. But man could I use someone in the flesh and blood that could hug me now. I am not at all minimizing the impact that you both have on my emotional health, and I am blessed to have your concern, cards, letters, art work. Someday this may all begin to make some sense.  ¶ 10:39 PM